My Life’s Not Bad, But It’s Not Really Good Either
Have you ever had those moments in your life, when you pause and realize that you’re life is just a series of tasks that you’re completing?
Then you think, “There’s got to be more.”
I have experienced this on more than one occasion and I’m of the belief now that it’s an indicator that
“I’m about to enter a new version of myself phase. I’m recallibrating!!!”
Years ago, I hopped onto a bullet train to the bottom.
My husband and I were in the midst of experiencing a painful financial crisis. We had hit bottom and were both working to “dig ourselves out of the very deep hole we found ourselves in.”
My version of experiencing this was not sleeping through the night for a year. I would wake up in the middle of the night in fear and panic night after night. I couldn’t eek out a positive thought. I was trying and it wasn’t landing for me. I just ended up feeling worse about myself because despite my best efforts I just couldn’t shift my state of mind.
One morning I woke up and was getting ready to take a shower and I looked in the mirror and my entire body was covered in hives. Other than my face, feet and hands, I looked like I had just wallpapered myself with an abstract design.
This thought just popped into my head,
“Marti, you’re killing yourself with you thoughts.”
This was my bottom.
The next thought was “Just look for one thing that you can feel good about today.”
I’m talking really small.
“The gal at the check out smiled at me.”
“That guy let me into traffic.”
I noticed that first day, that I felt about 1/10 of 1 percent better. I swear that’s how it felt to me.
Over the next month, I noticed that I just started feeling better and better each day. In micro-steps.
If you really study of Law of Attraction, it says, you can’t move from Hell to Happy in a moment. You have to take yourself up the emotional scale. Sometimes it might appear that someone takes a Quantum Leap, but they always go back and backfill.
For me, this was a HUGE relief. It took so much pressure off me. I stopped trying to Get Happy when I was no where near there. I just looked at a small increment of change of my emotions. That was a lot more possible and the biggest thing is It Worked.
Here’s an example: When you’re in despair and you think you need to get happy… that’s a lot of pressure, but if you can move into anger, that can feel a lot better than despair because there’s more energy and power in anger. It might not be anger for you. It might be that you can move to feeling discouraged and then from feeling discouraged you can feel irritation and from irritation you can feel complacent and from complacent you can begin to feel hopeful and then from hopeful you can feel optimistic. You might get the point now.
So the Take Away is, if you find yourself putting pressure on yourself to change your life or your emotional state… and you want it to happen fast… which of course you do… because we all do… I invite you to consider the idea, that a little change is a big change because little changes over time add up to a big change.
Before you know it, this life that appeared to be Not Bad and Not Great, can actually become a life that works for you in the best way.
Marti